Moments

There are moments that you just cannot get with a camera, they are better left to be experienced by your eyes, the world is a very beautiful place, and sometimes

You cannot capture the expierences you have with a camera you can only explain the feeling that you got while you stared off in amazement. The joy you can get by just one simple moment is priceless. 

Damage

We were kids in love, since middle school we pushed through highschool together. I used to look at you with such love and warmth, that the thouggt of losing you was too much to think about.

We went out for dinner one night and i couldnt stop looking at you, i didnt know if you noticed but i would look at you and smile like if i had everything that i had ever wanted, we were in a tough situation that month and i felt like i was about to lose you! I didnt want to see you gone from me, the love of my life could be gone any second, but in the end everything was ok, you were still with me. 

Months passed and there was an arguement with your parents, about i dont know what, all i could do was hug you and make sure you were ok, i didnt know what else to do, a week passed and you texted me saying we should ho our seperate ways and i didnt underdstand what i did wrong, i kept tdxting you and calling you but you wouldnt awnser me, i cried for months i heard that you had another girl, and i didnt know what else to do but just cry, because you were everything to me. Days felt like months and months felt like years without you, i wouldnt stop working and i had lost interest in school, because my life was going out of control, my appetite was gone, and i felt worthless and ugly, i wanted to be perfect so you could see me and love me still. We spokenone night and you told me to give you another chance, i agreed knowing that i was risking getting hurt again, you told me you were going to stop talking to her but you clearly didnt stop, when i found out that you were with her it broke me, i knew now that i could live without you. I will never be mad at you, and yes i forgive you because without rain or sunshine there is no flower, and i had to let it rain before i could let the sun shine.  I had lost myself for quite sometime, but i am happy that i found myself in the little things i had lost intrest in, reading and traveling to new places, even if they are just places that you havent been to around your city. Those are the things that helped me find who i was ment to become, yet i still find myself lost and confused but i can say this i will find buts and pieces of my heart through this journey. 

Thank you for taking the time to read.

Getting away

Its true sometimes you do have to just book a plane ticket and get away for sometime, or at least get away from the thing that is hurting you the most. 

We hold on to the pain so much that we dont know how to let it go but once we have let it go we are happier. 

When you left i felt the worst pain that i could ever imagine, to this day i still feel it. No matter how much it hurts, i will keep pushing forward, and never look back, i will cherish the person that i have become thanks to you, because i know now that i am doing better without you! 

one person can bring back so many memories.

when we fall in love no one tells us of how one person can mean so much to you, how they can change a bad day into a good day. How they can change the way that you look at things, how a hug from them can mean so much more than a diamond ring. no one tells us that they can be everything that makes us happy,  even a smile from them means so much, and imagining being without that person suddenly brings tears to your eyes, so when you see them all you can do is cherish the moment that you have with them. Its all so beautiful when you have that one person that means the world to you.